Never have I ever ran 5 miles under 50 minutes. HAPPY!

NO WHERE near my goal, but i wore my shorts today after months, and they were a bit big :)

i work out 4-5 times a week for 2-3 hours. i diet(most of the time) and i can BARELY lose weight. yeah, i lost weight but im not in the place that i want to be. around 25 in 6 months? 40 since February. i thought id lose a lot more by now. yeah, i know it takes time and a lot of work to see results… but 4-5 days 2-3 hours a week and i barely lose like a pound or two during a week. where are the big results? and if i dont work out(weekends) i like gain what i just lost from the previous week so i basically stay the same for like a month. i was 175 for 2 1/2 months! luckily i lost around 10 within the next month. but now, ive like stayed at 165 for like 2-3 weeks. i NEVER go out cause im ALWAYS at the gym. and some of the people at the gym like look at me like “oh look at this fatass kid who thinks is getting skinny but hes really not. he should just leave.” and like some/most of my clothes are bigger so when i wear them it makes me look HUGE and i barely have clothes that fit me right, so i just wear like the same tshirts and hoodies. some of my clothes even look the same as it did before so i have nothing to wear so i wear my big clothes and i look at myself in the mirror and i look like a fatass whale. my arms are fat as fuck and have not really changed since ive started working out. i kinda have muscles but i have so much fat covering, you cant even see them. my stomach is like SLOWLY shrinking but i do all these “ab” workouts and i look the same. my thighs look the same. my face is just fat and will never be skinny. and TUMBLR doesnt help cause everyone on here is like perfect and skinny and ripped and whatever. then theres me. i try to be as positive as i can and put up a front for people. but really, im REALLY DISAPPOINTED in myself. but idk. i feel like im trying SOOOOOOO hard and getting LITTLE results. i just want to give up. i feel like theres NO point.

:D slowly taking steps towards my goal! :D hopefully ill get there by……..hmm march? ok. march. hopefully ill be a size medium by march. keep me on check guys!

Hit me up and i can help! :D

motiveweight:

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the past few days have been pretty bad! saturday i didnt diet and ate some pretty bad stuff. i didnt eat that much on sunday but the food i had wasnt healthy either. today, all i had at home was left overs from the party so i ate bad again; bbq, pasta, candy, treats, etc. NOW tomorrow, im going to the cemetery for day of the dead and probably might eat bad again. i think i mightve gained a pound or two…or three im DEFINITELY starting my diet again on wednesday, if not tomorrow.

DETERMINED!

motiveweight:

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BUT, i must say that im feeling GREAT!

1. went to ESCO and did 2 sets of stairs and 2 laps as a warm up for gym
2. went to gym and ran a mile (aiming for my daily two but stairs got me tired. AND running in a sweater is TOUGH!)
3. elliptical for a mile
4. did some major stretching LOL
5. SPIN class…OH GOSH! i died!
6. then lifted a little

that little warm up at esco is GREAT! thinking of doing it everyday now!

anyone down to go walking/running/JOGGING/hiking/any type of exercise this week/weekend? i seriously have only a few pounds left! my doctor gave me like 3 months to lose 15 pounds. for the first 2 months i didnt give a fuck and did nuffins! i need to get on this shit again! since the beginning of this month, i lost around 7 pounds! im SO close! and i want to make him(and everyone at the doctor office) happy and excited!

so anyone? down to be healthy and active for the next week and a half?